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Divine Message:  It is the job of your brain to deceive you so that you can manifest ever greater lessons on the road to ascension.

More on yesterday’s blog about recreating the old pattern of  impatience/poor timing/obsessive thoughts:

A week or so ago I received an email indicating that I would be given the chance to ask questions and receive information through my Earth Angel.  At the moment I read the message, I felt that my life was moving smoothly and I didn’t really have any pressing questions.  Then, almost immediately, my mind began tormenting me, saying things like, “Well, if the We is offering then there must be something important to worry about.”  As I repeated a toxic pattern, I fell for it and allowed my vibration to lower in expectation of something negative, and I came up with several non-issues to discuss.

Instead, I could have listened to my intuition and continued to take the peaceful path, patiently awaiting any further instruction or information as it arrived in perfect timing as it always does.  I see it now.  I get it and I commit to practicing patience on a daily basis.  I will listen to my spirit guides and re-create any and all moments that impatience arises.  Here’s how I plan on doing this:

1)  In the morning and throughout the day, I  state my intention of patience.  I have little reminders around the house, in the kitchen windowsill, in the bathroom, etc.

2)  I  take care of myself in a loving, compassionate and gentle way by making time for sleep, nutrition, exercise, meditation, nature, fun… and a little pampering.

3)  I maintain assertive and loving boundaries within my relationships.

4)  I remember to breathe throughout the day and especially during times of stress.

5)  If impatience arises then I recognize it, forgive myself, ask forgiveness as needed, use a giant space eraser to delete the negative pattern from my brain, and re-do the interaction in a calm and loving manner.

Please join me in using these techniques and tell us how it goes in the comment section below.

In Joyful Patience, Beth

“A withdrawal of attention from the unwanted condition is necessary in order to release it from your experience, but it is also necessary to cease the resistant thought that pinched off the Well-Being to begin with. Our guided meditation process helps accomplish both of those things, and it lays the basis of a new-and-improved outlook on life. . . . You will find it easier to find increasingly better things to think about. It will be easier to see the positive aspects in situations and people. You will find compliments flowing from you, and you will feel appreciation for more things.

Your physical body is truly a reflection of the thoughts you think, but not only of the thoughts you think about your physical body. And so, understanding the Vibrational basis that supports your physical body is important to your maintaining of a healthy physical body. A regimen of physical actions is not enough. Your body is a pure reflection of the balance of the thoughts that you think.”

— Abraham

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Loving Message:  The world in which you live is a mirror reflection of the state of your inner being.

~ One of My Faves ~

“Relationships are our opportunity to see ourselves in every way imaginable.  From the greatest betrayals of our trust to our most desperate attempts to fill our emptiness, everyone – including our co-workers, classmates, and life mates – shows us something about ourselves.  If we have the wisdom to recognize the messages that are being mirrored to us, we discover the beliefs that cause the suffering in our lives.” Gregg Braden, “The Divine Matrix”

When I read Gregg Braden’s book a couple of years ago, I connected with this holographic image of reality.  My ability to recognize my own negative traits in my relationships became easier as I understood that how I live from moment to moment is a reflection of my current level of frequency or connection to spirit.  When things go awry, I made and make it a habit of looking within for answers as to how I manifested each experience.   And every day presents the need for more self reflection and study as the process is continuous and ongoing for those of us who choose to ascend.

~ We Are One ~

Here is an example:

Remember my ongoing complaint about receiving stressful, demanding emails from my soon to be ex-husband typically on Fridays, after my supposed “free time” begins?  Well, it turns out that I have been doing the same impatient, imposing thing to my Earth Angel.  The message I received from the We was that she is currently not available and that when this changes, I will be contacted.  In my non-connection to spirit, which often manifests as impatience and downward spiraling negative thoughts, I sent her a message outlining several of my current relationship issues.

My gut told me what I had done, however, I did nothing to correct my mis-step until I received a reply.  Here is a clip:

“Your current vibration of obsessing, impatience and bad timing causes a delay in your growth by not allowing physical, emotional, mental and spiritual acceleration and abundance as you have stated to Us that you desire daily as well as other stress related problems and results that you currently experience.”

I was also told to keep a self-healing journal of all the things that are currently on my plate, and to update my list daily.  This is an excellent way to purge my negative feelings so that I may demonstrate patience and flexibility on a daily basis.  The message continues,

“Patience and timing is learned and fine tuned through repetition. It takes daily mindful and spiritually conscious practice and correct vibrational matching of your choices and actions with the new skills to become divinely articulated. Others who are affected will marvel at the positive changes and be even more drawn to the light that burns white hot in you body, mind and soul.”

Isn’t this last quote exquisitely worded?  It reflects a very strong connection to spirit and calls you and I to step up our frequency ever higher…

With Eternal Love, Beth

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Words of Love: It is possible to live from a place of high frequency and joy every day.

~ Joy in Freedom ~

 

 

The boys were at school and it was just me and Coco, my 8 month old English Mastiff, at home. I had just gotten off the phone with someone calling to reschedule an appointment in the morning, so it was official, my schedule was open the entire morning. With that, I rounded up one of the boy’s bongo drums and began my ceremony. I did not play music, rather, I created rhythm, not knowing how to play the drums and not caring.

With the beat, I moved around the room in a circular then elliptical pattern. At some point primitive sounds came out of me. And at another point I felt a sharp stabbing pain in the seat of my womb as eons of victim energy resisted removal. Then Coco got up from her couch and came over to assist me. The pain immediately lifted as we danced and moved together across the floor, my hands never skipping a beat. At some point she got back on her couch. And then at some point later I began to slow down the beat. I sat down and gave several significant drum rhythms as the ceremony came to completion.

Afterwards I felt very happy and uplifted that it was done.

~ Feel the Beat ~

 

 

And I looked for the next part of the message from my Earth Angel:

“You have sent out an inner calling to something greater than being a victim. Letting go of something that you have embraced for many lifetimes will hurt but only for a short time. It is a necessary action to do for your growth and empowerment.

In releasing your victim role, you will get the lesson WE have been asking you to see. It will allow you to ‘see’ and ‘feel’ the bigger multi-dimensional picture in your life.

It is now time to get up every day looking for something to create as you have your gardening vision and painting. These are small things but very important.

Become a Master Creator…”

A Master Creator… I like that!!! It is a healthy, new way of perceiving life on a day to day basis. And I intend to go forth, creating all things beautiful…

In Alignment with Source, Beth

“Those that are succeeding and are thrilled and joyful in the unfolding will often tell you, “I’ve dreamed this since I was little. I imagined it, I pretended it, I used to practice with the hairbrush pretending it was a microphone.” Purity is the alignment of energy. Doesn’t matter what anybody else thinks about anything. It only matters what you think about it.”

— Abraham

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Source Love:  You Are loving, lovable and loved.

After the initial memory surge from the realization of living from the false belief that I am a victim wore off, I sat down to ask for guidance and help to learn what kind of a releasing ceremony I needed to perform.  I was instantly led to the below 2 YouTube videos of an Inner Mongolian Shaman’s Possession Ceremony:

 

If you watch the videos, you will notice some written explanations under the second of the 2 part series.  One person is possessed with the spirit of an elderly man and while the ceremony ensues, the spirit shifts to the body of one of the shaman.  It is clear when this happens because his body transforms into that of an old man.  I have witnessed similar trance channeling as a child and can speak to its validity.

When I began watching the videos, I asked for assistance in releasing the darkness inside of me and to my delight, as the videos ensued I felt myself in a meditative trance.  I was able to understand what was happening, however, my body felt distant and protected at the same time. 

I watched the dancers moving and swirling while hitting drums and singing.  Their costumes were beautiful with bells and ornate birds on the tops of their head gear.  The clothing was in long loose multi colored fabric and when they swirled it opened up and danced around their bodies.  At the precise moment that the spirit left the body of the shaman, I felt a huge release, suddenly weeping and then my chest felt light.  And my ears felt very warm.

Was this my release ceremony?  My mind says yes, and my heart says no, but it was a good start… 

In Swirling Biss, Beth

 

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Divine Message: Celebrate a Mother today.

~ Life is Colorful ~

 

 

 

 

 

“My mother and I walk through the rooms of her house… My mother and I find this a beautiful house.  The rooms are large and empty, opening on to each other, waiting for people and things to fill them up.  Our white muslin skirts billow up around our ankles, our hair hangs straight down our backs as our arms hang straight at our sides.  I fit perfectly in the crook of my mother’s arm, on th ecurve of her back, in the hollow of her stomach.  We eat from the same bowl, drink from the same cup; when we sleep, our heads rest on the same pillow.  As we walk through the rooms, we merge and separate, merge and separate; soon we shall enter the final stage of our evolution.”

 ”My Mother” by Jamaica Kincaid

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Message of Love: Expect to become what you so wish to become and you will be guided along the way to your destiny.

~ Natural Beauty ~

As a very young girl, I have vivid, frightful memories of being physically lifted off the ground with the angry kick from my dad. A towering 6’4” man, his behavior would shift dramatically from one moment to the next. When I was in my 20’s, I had the pleasure of re-living and remembering this experience while visiting my father and his new family, including his young toddler daughter. At the dinner table, he would carry on in a silly fashion with this lovely, spirited little girl. She loved it and ate it up until he switched over to being serious and expected her to follow suit, pronto. Well, of course at her age she could not and next what I witnessed felt very similar to what I experienced as a child.

What followed was an ugly, angry outburst. The insults, threats, and assaults that came out of his mouth felt like sharp, piercing daggers which were thrown at his own baby. And his wife said and did nothing protective for her daughter, probably much like my own acted when it occurred to me and my siblings. As her laughter and fun ended, she cried broken heartedly. How could she understand what she had done and why this was happening to her?

~ Divine ~

While witnessing the same scene that I had experienced throughout my childhood, I found myself unable to say anything. I felt like I was the small child who was being yelled at so violently. So I sat in silence, feeling ashamed and guilty, and more than anything else, wanting to get the heck out of there.

Today I realize that this interaction with my father, more than anything else in my lifetime, has shaped not only my people pleasing behavior, but also my deep seated and false belief that I am a victim. This mentality underlies my choices within my relationships. The role of victim has been played by me in many lifetimes and is the sea of darkness inside of me which is producing repetitive cycles of self-inflicted hurt and pain.

I see it.

It is no longer a secret.

And I vow to unleash my inner dragon to conquer this darkness so that I may become the enlightened, multi-dimensional being that I so desire to Be.

With Courage Facing the Unknown, Beth

“You don’t have to worry about what their vibration is if your vibration is one of connection. Because if your vibration is one of connection — you’re going to dominate the vibration. This is the way you learn your relationships. The thing that most people do not understand, is that you get to control the way you feel, because you get to choose the thoughts you think. Most people think that they only have the option of responding to the circumstances that surround them. And that’s what makes them attempt the impossible, which is to control the circumstances around them, which only feeds their feeling of frustration and vulnerability because it doesn’t take very much life experience to discover you can’t control all of those circumstances. But you can control your vibration. And when you control your vibration, you’ve controlled everything that has anything to do with you.”

— Abraham

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Divine Message:  Be brave and continue to face the darkness that is inside of you.  You will be very glad that you did.

~ Challenge ~

 

At times resistance rears its ugly head in my life and at those times, I am faced with a very challenging choice: to delve into the painful past in order to shed light on it and heal from it, or to continue feeling angry at myself and the drama I have created.  This appears to be a very easy choice, and it is, however, when amidst the crisis all my brain tells me to do is to run.  Avoid it.  Deny it.  Repress it.

So what have I done?  Most recently, I found myself falsely believing once again that I had easily forgiven myself, healed and moved on.  But what had really changed?  Nothing has changed, except that I had created yet one more misstep on my divine path.  Was the impatience inside of me masking something greater?

As the years of old, suppressed pains and emotions manifest themselves in current unpleasant life situations, I created yet another unhealthy addiction cycle: the need to purge, release and forgive myself.  Yes, this cycle can be healthy, but for me, as I continued to bring about the same bad feelings in my relationships, I recently began to feel there was something much more dark that I needed to face in order to break this old, hurtful pattern.  But what was it?

~ Change ~

Then I received a loving message from my Earth Angel.  It read:

“You are in the process of learning that there is a time for releasing and and time for creating. You are in the process of releasing a very strong embedded, ingrained belief in all your levels of being…it is called a victim consciousness. You have been living many lives by this belief and your choices are based on this belief, therefore, you only ‘see’ a lesson from one dimension, one side of a box. There is now a call on you to have a personal, solo, time of a major releasing ceremony to release all limits, all circumstances where you thought and think yourself to be a victim of others intentions and actions.”

~ Growth ~

This message resonated deeply with me.  It made sense.  I asked for guidance and assistance in how to perform such a ceremony.  I felt confident that I would receive the necessary information as needed.

In Loving Harmony, Beth

“Being in love is so good for you. Often when people are newly in love, things that have been bothering them for a long time get better. Something wonderful is calling the majority of their attention, so they’re holding themselves in a better vibrational place, so the stuff they’ve been wanting all along can now zoom in.”

— Abraham

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Message of Love:  Personal choice is what makes you human and defines your divine life path.

~ Connection ~

When I grew up, my parents strictly did not discuss politics.  On one hand, I had no exposure to a spiritual approach to this topic, and on the other hand, it saved me from listening to potential hate and fear based energies.  In this latter regard, I am thankful.

~ Beauty ~

After school yesterday, I asked each of my boys separately if they had heard about Osama Bin Laden in class.  My youngest said, “Who is that?” and my oldest said that, yes, he did hear about it.  He said one of his classmates explained that Osama was a very bad man and that now he is dead, killed by the U.S. Military.  Then he began asking me questions about it and I had the joyful experience of answering.  We were all in the car, a captive environment which facilitates listening and memory retention of my very busy boys.

~ Joyfulness ~

Here is a synopsis of what I told them:

1) First, I objectively explained the events of 9/11, which neither of them knew about beforehand.

2) I discussed the cycle of fear and hate between cultures which perpetuates wars, and the current energy of revenge now in the U.S. with the death of Osama.

3) Bringing the message home, I talked about personal choice and how it influences the energies of our planet.

“It’s up to each person whether or not he chooses to live from a place of love or a place of fear,” I said.

“Well, I Am love,” my youngest chirped.

“Yes, you Are,” I offered.

“I don’t feel either way,” my oldest said.

“And All is well,” I added, moments before we parked the car and our conversation was done…

In Loving Harmony, Beth

“Make a decision and then make it right. There just are no wrong decisions. You could go this way, or that way, and either way will eventually get you to where you want to be. But in the moment you start complimenting yourself on the decision you’ve made, in that moment, you come back into vibrational alignment with who-you-really-are.”

— Abraham

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Divine Message:  Even very young children can begin to understand lessons of a spiritual nature.

This is the first half of a story about assisting my children to be spiritually in-tune occupants of our loving planet.

Early yesterday morning, I turned my computer on and read the headlines, “Osama Bin Laden Is Dead.”  It came as a surprise to me, and I chose to not read the articles or watch the many, many news videos about it.  Then mid-morning, I received this channeled letter from my Earth Angel.  It read:

“I’m sure you know that Osama Bin Laden has been killed by our Navy Seals. Many citizens of the US and many around the world are celebrating his death. Actually as I watch the news today I see that many are celebrating the death as vengeance satisfied. Many are celebrating his murder as just reward for the sins of Al Queda. We spiritually led souls are not joining this celebration. I feel deep sadness at the celebration of vengeance as a viable means to an end. It is tragic that the earth and its spiritual inhabitants must ‘feel’ what the others are doing once again. There will be costly and tragic consequences to this death. Al Queda will retaliate and more innocents will die. The cycle of hate, and vengeance will perpetuate itself.

And many Americans are celebrating this event under the guise of patriotism and thousands are gathering and singing and waving the American flag. Tears fill my eyes as I view this. Mother Earth is quaking at the negative shift in energy. She will continue to react from her own pain. Many many souls will suffer. We who are aware and awake must stand in the gap and pray and meditate for further awakening of the souls who are engaging in this negative flow. We must keep ourselves zipped up and be prepared to hear the rantings and prideful expressions of those who celebrate this act. You will be hearing it as you travel your daily routine and I’m certain the boys will be exposed to it in school. Be prepared with an alternative viewpoint on these recent events. Explain what will be the result of celebrating vengeance.

Ok, enough of this for now. Stay zipped and the pain you feel will be less. First though let out the tears you feel and then move on. The last few days of this will go down as a dark time when the retaliation from those who hate will now increase.

Increase awareness…stay strong…”

This message resonated deeply within my soul and I knew why I chose to not expose myself to today’s toxic news energies.  But what about my children’s elementary school?  Would those responsible for educating my boys be joining in this celebration of revenge?  I hoped not, and yet I knew that these channeled messages were typically spot-on.  So I prepared myself for what I would say to them after school…

In Peaceful Harmony with Mother Earth, Beth

“Since you have control over what thoughts you offer, what could be more just than the powerful Law of Attraction responding equally to everyone who offers a vibration? Once you gain control over the thoughts you think, your sense of injustice will subside and will be replaced with the exuberance for life and the zest to create that you were born with. Let everything in the Universe be an example to you of the way the Laws of the Universe work.”

— Abraham

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Divinity:  The appreciation of anything draws more of it into your divine life experience.

~ Gardener's Delight ~

Arnulfo took wonderful care of our yard.  He mowed, edged, pruned and transplanted almost every week out of the year.  I was very sad when I learned that he would no longer be maintaining our small and lovely garden.  This was something my soon to be ex-husband did not feel was important to continue.  Unfortunately, a while back I read one of his malevolent emails which explained exactly why he canceled lawn service and his opinion of what I should do about it.  Once again, I was feeling like the work horse and had no one to be annoyed with except myself because I did not check with my intuition before opening his message.

So for a while I resigned myself to having no lawn care, but then I realized how bad I felt when I took Coco out to the yard and saw the unkept garden.  At this point, I asked to have my lawn maintained for me and it magically happened!  The woman whose back yard ends in my back yard has 2 cute little Pugs and we have recently become fast friends.  She is single, retired and lots of fun to hang out with…  not to mention that she is an ex-policewoman so my root chakra issues of feeling safe are well balanced when we are together.   And one day when my grass was at least 8″ tall, she came over and mowed it for me!  Talk about a blessing.

~ Miracles Do Happen ~

Then something happened.  I began to remember.  I had forgotten about the complete joy that I felt in the past when I was gardening.  Within the past week, another layer of the onion, a layer of darkness which dampened my inner light was lifted from around me.  I was no longer afraid of not being good enough, of being the yard horse, the one who is paid to do her job.  My feelings shifted to excitement and enthusiasm about my blank canvas of a yard.

Within a few hours, I researched and bought an electric mower and mapped out my yard plans for the weekend.  And on Saturday morning, there was no rain and the sun came out from behind big, fluffy, white clouds.  The yard felt challenging, soggy and uneven at times, and I remained in a state of focus and confidence throughout my first mowing.  As I went back and forth cutting the grass, I looked up at the back side of my home and felt such a wave of appreciation flow through me that I knew in my heart that I was home and divinely connected to spirit.

~ Beauty ~

After completing the lawn, I began weeding last year’s flower pots, then raking the gravel path, then moving to the front yard to rake and weed…  I lost complete track of time and continued in this fashion until my body chirped up and said it was time to go make some lunch.  I have no recollection of thoughts during my time gardening, except the flow of gratitude and connection to Gaia.  And my body completely regained energy after giving it nutrition.  It was a very meditative experience, and one I will continue to appreciate and enjoy.

Thanks, Mother Earth, for Our Reconnection ~

Eternal Love, Beth

“There is no risk for you. When you come to understand the true nature of Well-being in which you have come forth–then you can relax and begin to enjoy this magnificent adventure which is your creative life experience. We are not here to guide the specifics of that which you choose. You get to choose that, and you can’t get it wrong. We are here to assist you–only to assist you–in finding vibrational harmony with your desire; knowing that when you find vibrational harmony with your desire, you are, in this moment, a joyful Being. And that is our dominant wish for you.”

— Abraham